Walk With Me Jesus

 Today's post is quite personal to me, but I know that many will find it personal to them as well, for this is a battle we all face at one time or another. 

" Therefore also now, saith the Lord, turn ye even unto me with all your heart, 

and with fasting, and with weeping and with mourning. 

And rend your heart, and not your garments, and turn unto the Lord your God:

for he is gracious and merciful,

slow to anger,

and of great kindness and repenteth him of the evil. "

Joel 2:12-13

" Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not to thy own understanding. "

Proverbs 3:5

 You wonder at the purpose of these verses. In the past, I have talked about idols and victory and struggle and many other things besides just the " fun stuff. " The last week or so ( perhaps even much longer than that, for things sometimes creep up slowly ) I have felt so alone. I berated myself, saying that I am not alone, God is always with me. But it didn't feel like he was. I went around doing all the things a Christian ought to do. I went to Bible study and church, read my Bible and prayed. Yet, I felt...that I was lacking something. What, I did not know.

 Finally, I broke down. I had begun to make many mistakes. I felt worse than ever. Crying out to God, I told Him I had hit rock bottom. It hit me then. That was exactly where He wanted me. I had been trying to survive on my own self-righteousness. I had been trying. Trying to be a good Christian, trying to do all the things I am supposed to do as a believe in Christ. That was were I had begun to fail. You know that part of the verse above, about rending your heart and not your garments? I see that as letting Christ do the work in you instead of you trying to do it all yourself. 

 So, I let go. I prayed through. Really. For the first time in a long time, and not out of " obligation ". And you know what? It has been amazing ever since. I am so much happier. I feel so light and free. Realizing that I shouldn't do things out of obligation or because ' it's the thing to do ' freed me up to let the Holy Spirit move freely. Now He can satisfy my longing. Now I can have peace. Now I can have victory. Because now, I am not trying. Jesus came in and touched my heart and heard my cries. He is healing the broken pieces. Thank You, Lord Jesus. I love YOU!!!

Jesus never fails,

Jesus never fails,

You might as well get thee behind me Satan,

You cannot prevail,

'Cause Jesus never fails!

Day Trip Across Oregon

 So, on Monday my folks and I went on a lovely adventure with my mom's cousin and his wife over to beautiful eastern Oregon. It was SUCH a gorgeous day. Brilliant blue skies and sunshine. ( Okay, and really cold wind. ) Most of the day was spent sitting in the car while we drove there and drove around the different towns and driving home. It was just kinda a relaxed day and I wanted to be comfortable ( not to mention I had to get up like, two hours earlier than I normally would ), so please forgive the awful sight of a truly messy messy-bun. :D Most of the pictures I captured through the window, but my camera did amazing most of the time. ;) Without further ado, here are quite a few shots of our trip:

I was so amazed at first that there would still be snow! But, there was...and lots of it!

See? LOTS! :D

Can't remember the name of the mountaiin :/

The stacks of Bend's old mill, now a mall and tourist attraction

Memorial on Pilot's Butte, Bend

Me, Lea, and my mom
Pilot's Butte, Bend

View of Bend and Black Butte ( I think )

We ate at Black Bear Diner for lunch and they have these cute spoof newspapers as their menu ( inside )

LOL! This pic gets me every time. This is such an awkward pose!

Check out the jukebox and the stuffed bears at the counter! :D

MAMOUTH burger! There is nothin' skimpy about their portions!

My meal: A HALF stack of pancakes... = 2 ginormous pancakes. I couldn't even eat all of it!

Touring a candy shop...mmmm :)

I love old stuff like this! :D

These little guys followed us all around the walking trail via the river hoping for food
SO CUTE!
:D

Talk about gorgeous scenery, hey?

Caught this cute little place as we drove home - LOVE the sunflower!

Three Fingered Jack, Black Butte ( ? ), and ( ? )
Lol, for being a native Oregonian, you'd think I'd know my geography better - but I don't

Random little pull-off place we happened to stop at to stretch our legs.
Cool thing is, I've seen a documentary about this!

Well, until next time friends!

Bon Voyage!

Book Review

 So, I have an account on this really awesome website called Goodreads. This website is kind of the Facebook of books. You can have a profile and follow authors and people and get updates on what they've written/read. I love it. I am also able to keep track of what I've read and write reviews etc...
 A couple of weeks ago, I got a friend request from an up-coming author searching for readers who want to review her book in exchange for getting a free e-book copy! Cool deal, right? I'm certainly not going to pass up a free book - especially since this was a Christian author. She asked if I would do a review on Goodreads ( which I have yet to do at this point in time ) and on any other social media I have. Which would be my blog. :) Not into social media so much anymore.

 Ok, So down to the nitty-gritty. The book is called Fire Storm and it is written by Mackenzie Dare. ( Really cool title and name, right? :D ) It is 308 pages, but it is so engaging, I assure you it will fly by. Despite circumstances that prevented me from reading a book as quickly as I normally would, I was quite sorry to have it end. However, I must give applause to the fact that I really enjoyed the ending. I am picky about endings. I don't like it to end and there is something that seems like it didn't get resolved and you are left hanging. I will also add though, that I did have a bit of a time getting into the story at the first. ( But that may also have something to do with the fact that I was so distracted the first few chapters ) It was enjoyable, but it seemed like the action began too premature, then leaves you in the dust trying to figure out where the story is heading for the next several chapters. As I got further into the story though, and was able to more fully focus on it, I can see how it all pulls together. The author has great ability to keep your attention because you are never quite sure what to expect next and it is very exciting! I love the focus on Christ and how the fun, sincere relationships in the story make it seem like you are hanging out with friends. When the story gets intense you are praying for things to turn out okay right along with them. You feel what they are feeling because it is that realistic. There is a depth and detail in how certain parts are written that show that either it is something familiar and dear to the author's heart, or she has done a lot of research and is quite gifted. Perhaps both! Certainly a great story for a first publish.

 There ya have it! I am not going to spoil it and tell what it is all about. I'm only giving my honest opinion about the book. You will have to go read it to find out what the scoop is. :D

Bon Voyage!

Exciting News!

 I am super, super excited about this! Next week, a long-time friend of mine will be coming out to Oregon for a visit with her mom! Better yet, it will most likely be an extended stay for her, so we will get lots of time together! :) I feel so blessed. I think the most amazing thing about this though is how much it shows me personally the tender love of God. For the last couple months I had been thinking that I should ask my friend if she would be coming out this year for a visit or not. Just a couple weeks ago, I got on skype and guess what? Her status was " Going to Oregon in three weeks ". YIKES! WHAT?! Ever since then I've been doing a happy dance inside and out at how God gave me the desire of my heart. I hadn't even asked HIM yet. I was just thinking about it and He decided to give me a little love gift. :)

 I'm sure we'll have lots of adventures together, so hopefully I will have stuff to post. I may have posted a few pics of our time together when she was out here last year about this time. Here are a couple shots of just how crazy and wonderful we are ;P  ( jk jk, lol )

Let Go And Let God

" Let go and let God have His wonderful way,

Let go and let God have His way.

Your sorrows will vanish,

Your night turn to day.

Let go and let God have His way. "

 Such is a little chorus that has been going through my mind since last night. Powerful isn't it? I have been pretty busy this week and a bit stressed. As soon as that song popped into my head, I felt such a rush of release. It reminded me that I don't have to worry about it all on my own. If I let God take all my burdens, I will have peace and joy the way He desires me to have. It is not easy to relinquish control though, is it? Although I have felt a measure of peace, Satan is still right there trying to disturb my peace. Telling me all of the things I'm wanting to give over to God and trying to keep my mind in a tizzy. However, there is another little chorus that my grandma wrote that goes:

" I'm nothing Satan says I am

And little of what others think I am,

So why should I let that influence me? "

 Amen? Amen! :) It's a daily battle, but THE LORD IS ON OUR SIDE. If He is for us, WHO CAN BE AGAINST US?! The answer is no one!

Though mountains fall and valleys fill,

The love of Christ holds me still. 

When my strength fails in the tempest,

In His arms I find rest.

In the midst of raging, fierce sea

His love is the anchor staying me.

When it seems all hope for safety is gone,

God, You show me the way.

Lord, You hide me in Your pavilion.

In the cleft of my Lord,

Christ, the Solid Rock I hide.

I stand on safe, solid ground.

While men die in waves of sinking tide,

 No other have I seen so sound as Christ,

My cleft, my Rock.

My Hope ever strong.

In Him I stand.

In Him I hide.

Though fierce doubt and trouble assail

When I in His high pavilion stay

Mine enemies can ne'er prevail.

Even when they fight their hardest,

Jesus saves the day.

He is my Banner of Love o'er me,

My cleft, my Solid Rock.