There are so many days lately where I have not felt inspired, enthusiastic, or energetic about anything. I'm sure everyone has felt that way at some point, right? That down-in-the-gutter feeling. " Can I just forget this problem or that problem? Maybe it will just...disappear if I ignore it. " Huh-uh. Unfortunately, that does not work or help in the long run. It may take some time to work through a situation in your head, but ultimately a decision still has to be made, words have to be spoken, deeds have to be done.
In my own personal life and in the lives of many around me there have been some immense struggles recently. Suffering is nothing new to us, but each situation has its own unique qualities that create a fresh feeling to the suffering. Still can't help but ask ' how? ' and ' why? ' and ' when will this be over? '. All the knowledge of a light being at the end of the tunnel only brings a small flame of comfort. Because struggle is struggle.
So what to do on the days when forever stretches in yawning midnight black and it feels SO unbearable? I'm learning that it's by remembering to not look at the forever part so much. There is no defined time limit to the trials of life. Today might be the best day of your life and tomorrow the worst---or the other way around. There is no way of knowing for certain what lies ahead. You might be hurting; I might be hurting. Today is today. Don't carry that hurt ahead in your mind. Take it one day at a time. Focus on pushing through ( or savouring! ) today. It's just like walking. One foot in front of the other. One day, then the next. God holds tomorrow. Only He knows what it will bring and nothing that happens in our lives happens without His say-so. :) Even the " bad ", hard things have a purpose. Eventually there will be retrospect and you will see things about a situation that you never could have seen in the heat of battle. Perhaps the why, perhaps the silver lining, the lesson learned, maybe nothing. It may have not even been for your benefit, but for the benefit of someone else. Hold tight, anchor down, find what calms you and wait for the storm of the day to pass. God sees the other side...and it could be outrageously beautiful. ;)